I can’t get used to saying words like “we” and “our.” I’m so used to referring to things belonging to John and me. I can’t get used to saying “my” or “mine.” It’s a good thing that I have Nathaniel because there still is a “we” and an “our” to some extent. I don’t know if I’ll ever be comfortable saying “my” or “mine” for a lot of things. Now the horses have always been mine, without question, but there were so many things that we shared. There are some things that are hard to consider not belonging to John… his bike, his Jeep. But, I really do think that there are some things that always will be ours- Nathaniel will always be our son. That is something that death doesn’t change.