“We” and “our”

I can’t get used to saying words like “we” and “our.”  I’m so used to referring to things belonging to John and me.  I can’t get used to saying “my” or “mine.”  It’s a good thing that I have Nathaniel because there still is a “we” and an “our” to some extent.  I don’t know if I’ll ever be comfortable saying “my” or “mine” for a lot of things.  Now the horses have always been mine, without question, but there were so many things that we shared.   There are some things that are hard to consider not belonging to John… his bike, his Jeep.  But, I really do think that there are some things that always will be ours-  Nathaniel will always be our son.  That is something that death doesn’t change.

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About Mary K. Smith

I was widowed in July 2009, when I lost my beloved husband, John, to melanoma. Cancer SUCKS. We have a young son who was just a year old when his father died. I live on a small farm in Maryland which is home to horses, cats, and a dog. I started this blog as a way for me to heal, a way to remember my husband, and eventually I'd like to share it with our son so he can see the love that his father had for him, the love that we had for each other, what a great person his father was, and how hard his father fought to live.
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