4 AM and I’m going to bed…

As opposed to

“It’s 4:03 and I can’t sleep. Without you next to me, I toss and turn…”

I’m still not looking forward to an empty bed- don’t think I’ll ever…  But, I’m getting more used to it.

But, I’m tired… headed to bed…

I have two batches of cinnamon ornaments drying.  They are ribbon ornaments in memory  of John.  I’m feeling quite clever that I figured out how to put his initials on them!  We’ll see how they end up turning out.  I was having issues with them curling as they were drying, so hopefully I figured out a work around.

I made batches of black clay ribbon ornaments on John’s birthday.  I gave the first one away today.  My farrier won’t be back till February.  He’s a nice guy and he liked John, so I figured he deserved one.  He seemed to really appreciate it.  I explained the significance of the color black (for melanoma awareness).

I feel somewhat accomplished… but mostly tired…

I’m off to bed… I shouldn’t have a problem sleeping tonight…

About Mary K. Smith

I was widowed in July 2009, when I lost my beloved husband, John, to melanoma. Cancer SUCKS. We have a young son who was just a year old when his father died. I live on a small farm in Maryland which is home to horses, cats, and a dog. I started this blog as a way for me to heal, a way to remember my husband, and eventually I'd like to share it with our son so he can see the love that his father had for him, the love that we had for each other, what a great person his father was, and how hard his father fought to live.
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