Another dream

I think I’ve only had one or two dreams about John since he passed away.  Today, I was exhausted from being sick, yet again… and took a nap.  During my nap, I dreamed about John.

He was here and I wanted to talk to him so badly… ask him all sorts of questions… Was he okay?  Where exactly had he been?  What was Heaven like?  Could he stay for a while?  Would everything be okay?  I wanted to tell him everything about kiddo.  I wanted to hug… I wanted to cuddle… I just wanted to spend time with him.

Instead he said he was tired.  I let him be, like I’d learned to.  I figured we could talk later.

I woke up to an empty bed.  I tried to fall asleep, hoping the dream would continue.  It didn’t.


About Mary K. Smith

I was widowed in July 2009, when I lost my beloved husband, John, to melanoma. Cancer SUCKS. We have a young son who was just a year old when his father died. I live on a small farm in Maryland which is home to horses, cats, and a dog. I started this blog as a way for me to heal, a way to remember my husband, and eventually I'd like to share it with our son so he can see the love that his father had for him, the love that we had for each other, what a great person his father was, and how hard his father fought to live.
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2 Responses to Another dream

  1. Mary Bruno says:

    Mary — Hi — this is Mary Bruno from M4MDE. Just read about a firefighter who died of melanoma in Washington state on Jan 1, 2011. “Google” article — his death was attributed to work related hazards — thought you may be interested — did not know if you persued this avenue for finances to help you and your son. Hope you are well — you may want to reach out to this family. Hope you are well !!

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