It’s a Tuesday and it’s raining…

It’s a Tuesday and it’s raining…

Everyday that it is a Tuesday and raining… I can only think of tears from Heaven…

John died on a Tuesday… every Tuesday is one more week away from him… one more week without him… at first I noticed every Tuesday.

Now, I don’t.

But on the Tuesdays when it rains, I notice.

To top it off, a friend’s horse coliced today and lost his fight.  Damn colic.  I lost my first horse, P.C., to colic at the young age of seven.

Colic and cancer two of the things that scare me the most.  Two things that are so often so fatal.  Damn cancer.  Damn colic.

Driving home, alone in the car, this comes on the radio:

  “If I Could Turn Back Time” Cher

Most of the song doesn’t apply… but the basic premise of the song… obviously does…

If I could turn back time

My world was shattered I was torn apart
Like someone took a knife and drove it deep in my heart

Oh… if I could only turn back time…


About Mary K. Smith

I was widowed in July 2009, when I lost my beloved husband, John, to melanoma. Cancer SUCKS. We have a young son who was just a year old when his father died. I live on a small farm in Maryland which is home to horses, cats, and a dog. I started this blog as a way for me to heal, a way to remember my husband, and eventually I'd like to share it with our son so he can see the love that his father had for him, the love that we had for each other, what a great person his father was, and how hard his father fought to live.
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