Category Archives: Pre-stage IV

Before John’s stage IV diagnosis.

Due date

July 14th, 2008 was my due date.  Kiddo was showing no signs of budging, so John and I did exactly everything we shouldn’t have done… we went to Annapolis… probably a good hour maybe more away from the hospital.  I … Continue reading

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Happy Birthday, Remington!

Our dear little Remington… ok, not so little.. Remi turned NINE, today!!! On May 16th, 2003, Squall delivered a healthy colt. My friend, Erin, helped with the delivery as she’d been a part of many more foalings than I had.  … Continue reading

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Annual skin check

Today, I had my annual skin check.  Part of me just wants to forgo it… to never set foot in a dermatologists office… to not be surrounded with video and photos of irregular moles… to not relive the painful memories… … Continue reading

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McDonald’s memory

There I was… waiting… waiting… waiting… in the drive thru line.  The lady at the first window was sweet and courteous and then after much more waiting she appeared at the second window with my order.  She was equally as … Continue reading

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Photo a Day 12-6-10

A very unimpressive photo to most… but hopefully a step in the right direction. The gym was an oasis for me after losing John.  It’s one place where I can go and have some “me” time with no concerns or … Continue reading

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RIP Winnie

Today, I had my second difficult, heart wrenching decision of the year.  Winnie went downhill last night.  She started crying and couldn’t walk straight.  She was scared.  I was terrified she wouldn’t make it through the night and didn’t want … Continue reading

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*** Warning Graphic **** Comparing Grief to Proud Flesh

****************************** OK ************************ ********************* You’ve ****************************** *********************************been ********************* *****************************************warned *********** ******** no actual graphic photos ****** but graphic links *** John would shake his head and comment on how I could relate EVERYTHING to horses- often with a roll of … Continue reading

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