Tag Archives: Christmas

Planting the Christmas trees

Posted on April 15, 2012 by Mary K. Smith

I know… it’s April… I should have planted them much earlier, but honestly, I didn’t think they’d live… I didn’t believe they would live through winter with me as their caregiver. But sure enough this spring they were showing new … Continue reading →

Posted in Leaky Creek, Life after John's Death | Tagged Christmas, evergreen, gloves, in sickness and in health, marriage, mechanics gloves, shovel, trees, wedding | Leave a comment

Perfect Christmas Gift…

Posted on December 2, 2010 by Mary K. Smith

I found the perfect Christmas gift. It combines two of his loves… cycling and computers/gaming. It even would have worked with his beloved Trek road bike. It would alleviate the boredom of indoor training… and would have allowed him to … Continue reading →

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Red Sweater

Posted on December 27, 2009 by Mary K. Smith

I teared up as I was getting Nathaniel ready to go to Christmas dinner at his aunt’s house. I had on my new red sweater that I’d purchased for our Christmas card photo. I was dressing Nathaniel in his spiffy … Continue reading →

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Crisp night, day filled of memories

Posted on November 29, 2009 by Mary K. Smith

I just got in from feeding the horses. The air is crisp with a chill to it. The grass is beginning to form a frost and the windshield of the Forester is becoming covered covered by icy fingers. Other than … Continue reading →

Posted in Life after John's Death, Nathaniel | Tagged B rit Middies, Christmas, curtain, fleece pajamas, friend, insulated curtain, John, Nathaniel, pik stik, shopping | Leave a comment

Ravens vs Colts

Posted on November 23, 2009 by Mary K. Smith

Back when I went to the first pre-season game it was suggested that I go to a regular season. The Colts were still available and that was the game to go to. Mainly because of the rivalry after Indianapolis stole … Continue reading →

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“No Balls”

Posted on November 13, 2009 by Mary K. Smith

Today, a friend and her daughter came over and we hung out and worked on some organizing around the house. I decided to tackle the trash bags sitting in the computer room that had been brought from AFD– John’s personal … Continue reading →

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Sometimes… I just long to hear his voice…

Posted on September 19, 2009 by Mary K. Smith

(Disclaimer- R rated- adult language) Pictures are great, but they don’t take the place of hearing John’s voice. Last weekend, I was feeling tremendously lonely and called his cell phone just the hear him say, “John Smith.” I know… silly… … Continue reading →

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