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As it draws closer
With every passing day, it draws closer to a year without John. In jumbled order… somewhere around this time we were watching the Tour de France together. There was the terrible pop of bone… the awful MRI experience (for … Continue reading
Posted in Annapolis Fire Department, Life after John's Death, Nathaniel
Tagged AFD. Annapolis Fire Department, alone, ambulance, bachelors, beer, big picture, dating, Disney, divorcess, encouragement, future, happiness, issues, John, let go, lonely, lost, love, move on, Murphy's law, Nathaniel, overwhelming, sad, support, Team Smitty, Tour de France, vacations, widow
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“I’ll Wait for You”
I was driving today and flipped to WXCY, the local country station. I grew up listening to country music, but I’ve moved away from it the last several years. Song- “I’ll Wait For you” Artist- Joe Nichols This song came … Continue reading
Posted in Annapolis Fire Department, Family, Firefighting, Friends, Horses, Life after John's Death, Nathaniel, Stage IV
Tagged 48 years, AFD, Ann, Annapolis Fire Department, bike, club level, Club Level PSL, Cycling, Dave, die alone, familar face, fear, gate, gravestone, handsome, Heaven, hospital, I'll Wait for You, IL2, Joe Nichols, John, last night together, lonely, Mary Emily, Mary Emily Brown, memories, nasy side effects, Nathaniel, PSL, Ravens, re-marry, rich, The Lake House, wicked side effects
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Sometimes… I just long to hear his voice…
(Disclaimer- R rated- adult language) Pictures are great, but they don’t take the place of hearing John’s voice. Last weekend, I was feeling tremendously lonely and called his cell phone just the hear him say, “John Smith.” I know… silly… … Continue reading
Posted in Family, Leaky Creek, Nathaniel, Pre-stage IV
Tagged baby steps, bawled, before stage III, before stage IV, breaks my heart, cancer suvivor, cell, Christmas, crabs, exhale, fingers clean, first cereal, first Christmas, first present, fuck, grieving, healed, hearing, heart ached, inhale, John, John Smith, lonely, meticulous, Nathaniel, opening package, present, repeat, theraputic, voice, walking backwards
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Rainbows & Mourning Doves 