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Now I’m one of those people…
Earlier this year, I went to some memorial services where John along with other deceased members were honored…. Harford Cecil Volunteer Fireman’s Association and Community Fire Company of Rising Sun’s banquet. It broke my heart to see that some people … Continue reading
Posted in Annapolis Fire Department, Community Fire Company of Rising Sun, Events in honor of John, Firefighting, Horses, Life after John's Death, Nathaniel
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As it draws closer
With every passing day, it draws closer to a year without John. In jumbled order… somewhere around this time we were watching the Tour de France together. There was the terrible pop of bone… the awful MRI experience (for … Continue reading
Posted in Annapolis Fire Department, Life after John's Death, Nathaniel
Tagged AFD. Annapolis Fire Department, alone, ambulance, bachelors, beer, big picture, dating, Disney, divorcess, encouragement, future, happiness, issues, John, let go, lonely, lost, love, move on, Murphy's law, Nathaniel, overwhelming, sad, support, Team Smitty, Tour de France, vacations, widow
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Today
The Sunday after John passed away, my friend invited me to attend his church service. I’ve pretty much been going to Bethel Lutheran every Sunday, except for missing a few for the Philly LiveStrong Challenge, Miles for Melanoma 5K, Melanoma … Continue reading
Happy and sad at the same time….
I love those moments where Nathaniel does something that makes me smile and/or makes me proud. But at the same time, I often find myself fighting back tears because John wasn’t here to witness the moment and share it with … Continue reading
Posted in Life after John's Death, Nathaniel
Tagged cheerios, crunchies, eating with utensil, happy, intertwined happiness and sadness, Jeep, John, Nathaniel, proud, puffs, sad, toy fork
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Rainbows & Mourning Doves 