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11:09 7-23-12
Naturally, July is a tough month and the last several days have been a lot of reflecting and remembering. 11/9 was John’s B-day and I find myself catching the time frequently. That and 9:11. At 11:09 PM on Monday, I … Continue reading
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Tagged 98 rock, John, Nathaniel, NPR, smile, true love, Unchained, Van Halen
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Just to see you smile…
Driving home I flipped through the radio stations trying to find something worth listening to. I paused on an old familiar song and heard just the last lines… “I’d never count the cost, It’s worth all that’s lost, Just to … Continue reading
My best demonstrated practice…
At work we’re having a spirit building, moral boosting, ring in the fall sort of activity where we are invited to share our best demonstrated practices in order to help others. People write the best demonstrated practices on fall covered … Continue reading
I’ve decided that I’d rather be a toddler than a widow…
Watching Nathaniel has caused me to come to this decision. I’d rather be a toddler than a widow…. When you’re a toddler It’s perfectly acceptable to cry in public. People think you’re cute even when teary eyed. You can throw … Continue reading
Posted in Life after John's Death, Nathaniel
Tagged bad dream, belly, big delights, boo boo, carefree, cheerleader, comfort, cry, drive, emotions, guide, hugging, innocent, love, meals, Nathaniel, normal, pep talk, public, simple pleasures, smile, snuggling, temper tantrum, toddler, toys, uncomplicated, unconditional love, widow, worry
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Got me thinking…
I recently read a post on a board where a man who had had melanoma was considering if he should have a child or not, knowing that the odds of him being alive in 5 or 10 years aren’t that … Continue reading
Posted in Family, Leaky Creek, Life after John's Death, Nathaniel, Pre-stage IV
Tagged board, cancer, cancer shouldn't control lives, cancer shouldn't stop people from living, critter highway, decision to become parents, decision to have a child, ethical and moral issues, eyes, foxes, gaze, giggle, gone tomorrow, greatful, happiest year and six days of his life, John, laugh, Leaky Creek, live another 80 years, melanoma, miss John, Nathaniel, never know, reason greater than self, reason to fight, smile, snow, so in love, statistics we've beat it, thankfull for Nathaniel, tracks, twinkle, walk, winter
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Melanoma Messengers Training & Philly trip
This weekend I attended the Melanoma Messengers Training through Melanoma Research Foundation (MRF). My father, went with me at my request. I just wasn’t ready to go to a strange city by myself (I’m a country gal) and didn’t want … Continue reading
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Tagged always love, always miss, appreciate simple pleasures, awesome, big hug, bike ride, Brookview, carriages, Chapter 2, chicken, cinnamon ornaments, community resolutions, country gal, dad, David, Earth, economy, educate, Engine 8, enthusiasm, father, fight melanoma, finding time to smile, fire station, firefighter, fund raise, generator, grieve, grumpy grey, happy couple, history, hotel, in love, Independence Hall, jazz band, Jim's, John, Ladder 2, legislative, Liberty Bell, LiveStrong, make something happen, melanoma, Melanoma Messengers, Melanoma Research Foundation, miss John, mitotic rate, Mom, moving forward, Mr. Dudley, MRF, music, my role, Nathaniel, new life, new normal, new tumor, old normal, Philadelphia, Philly, Philly cheese steak, positive, pre-cancer, rain, raise awareness, random back roads, Remi, Rescue, research, selling, Shannon, smile, snuggled, spontaneous, strange city, survivors, Team Smitty, thunderstorm, tossed out, training, Vegas Principle, volunteer, Washington DC, yesterday's garbage
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To whomever left the skittles…
To whomever left the skittles, you brought a smile to my face and tears to my eyes. John would definitely appreciate 🙂 Sometimes I feel like I’m the only one missing John and grieving for him on a daily basis. … Continue reading
Posted in Life after John's Death
Tagged daily basis, grieving, John, skittles, smile, tears
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More random stuff from the past few days…
In no particular order… The Jeep- Trying to be the responsible head of household, I decided that I needed to find out when the Jeep needed to be serviced. I called Adam’s Jeep in Aberdeen and they told me that … Continue reading
Posted in Family, Life after John's Death, Stage IV
Tagged Adam's jeep, brakes, Di, father figure, handsome, Heaven, Jeep, relationships, remarry, rich, rotors, smile, stepfather, Widows wear Stilettos
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First birthday without John…
Everybody, says that birthdays and holidays are difficult after you lose a spouse. I knew it would be difficult, but I didn’t know how hard it would be. I’ve found that if I’m prepared for things then I handle them … Continue reading
Posted in Community Fire Company of Rising Sun, Cycling, Friends, Leaky Creek, Life after John's Death, Nathaniel, Pre-stage IV
Tagged bawl, Beth, bike, bike ride, bike trailer, birthday, cry, first, first bike ride, honeymoon, hotel, James, John, lima bean, Nathaniel, smile, steak, Wendy
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Rainbows & Mourning Doves 