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Just to see you smile…
Driving home I flipped through the radio stations trying to find something worth listening to. I paused on an old familiar song and heard just the last lines… “I’d never count the cost, It’s worth all that’s lost, Just to … Continue reading
One year ago today…
One year ago today at this time, I was a wife. Before evening, I was a widow. A lot of reflecting, soul searching, memories, and tears have taken place over the last few weeks. Yesterday, thinking about the circle of … Continue reading
Posted in Life after John's Death, Nathaniel
Tagged circle of life, flowers, grave, John, memories, Nathaniel, peace, reflecting, soul searching, tears, widow, wife
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Heading to the cemetery
Heading to the cemetery this came on the radio… Van Halen’s “Right Now” This was one of the songs I used for the funeral slide show. I hadn’t stopped by the cemetery for a few days. Kiddo and I had … Continue reading
Posted in Life after John's Death
Tagged MD Crab soup, Miss Oxford Diner, perfect timing, Right Now, smiles, tears, Van Halen
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Calling a fire station
A few nights ago, at work, I had an account that I needed to call. My account recognition skills told me that our customer was a paid firefighter. On a side note- paid firefighter or career firefighter is the correct … Continue reading
To whomever left the skittles…
To whomever left the skittles, you brought a smile to my face and tears to my eyes. John would definitely appreciate 🙂 Sometimes I feel like I’m the only one missing John and grieving for him on a daily basis. … Continue reading
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Tagged daily basis, grieving, John, skittles, smile, tears
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Hanging on
After feeding Nathaniel his breakfast, I’m loading the dishwasher and my mind starts to wander. I think to myself, why is it so hard to move on and let go. I’m talking little things- not saying that I should move … Continue reading
Posted in Life after John's Death, Nathaniel
Tagged antique, car, collect, hang on, hanging on, Horses, John, junk, LiveStrong, LiveStrong shirt, memories, Nathaniel, packing up clothes, tears
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Baby steps
Sometimes it takes a 14 month old boy to bring true knowledge to your life. My friend and c0-worker, Beth, & her husband, John, treated us to dinner at Applebees. Afterward we stopped by work to visit briefly with my … Continue reading
Posted in Friends, Nathaniel, Pre-stage IV
Tagged Anniversary, apart, baby steps, bitersweet, epiphany, fear, Friends, good front, heart ached, hesitation, John, life, loneliness, love, Nathaniel, pics, pictures, Roses, sleeping, smiles, tears, true knowledge, work
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How do you celebrate an anniversary when your other half is gone?
I had mulled over what I could do to celebrate and honor our marriage today. I decided that I would do my best to try to remember the good things and forget the loneliness and sadness. I stopped at Martin’s … Continue reading
Posted in Events in honor of John, Family, Life after John's Death, LiveStrong Challenge, Nathaniel, Pre-stage IV
Tagged Ann, Anniversary, aunts, beaten cancer, cancer, cemetery, Dave, Di, flowers, forever love, John, life was good, Linda, LiveStrong, LiveStrong band, LiveStrong Challenge, love, Love Always, love of my life, Marie, Martin's, melanoma, melanoma band, Nathaniel, Philly LiveStrong Challenge, proud, rain, red roses, Roses, steak, Steak & Shake, survivor, Survivor roses, tears, wedding colors, yellow roses
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Happy Anniversary!
Today, John and I would have shared four years of happily married life together. I’m still going to consider it to be my anniversary… we didn’t choose to end our marriage. At midnight my friend, Shannon, and we talked for … Continue reading
Posted in Events in honor of John, Friends, Horses, Life after John's Death, Nathaniel, Pre-stage IV
Tagged Anniversary, bed, darkness, happily married, Happy Anniversary, Heaven, Heavens, Horses, John, life, love, Love Always, love of my life, married, Mourning Dove, phone, rain, Shannon, solitary, talked, tears
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Random thought about Heaven
I’ve been busy the last few days and really need to add some updates, but I had a random thought that seemed to need it’s own entry. Today, Mom & I slaved on cleaning the paddocks and run-ins. We moved … Continue reading
Rainbows & Mourning Doves 