Tag Archives: widow
Now I’m one of those people…
Earlier this year, I went to some memorial services where John along with other deceased members were honored…. Harford Cecil Volunteer Fireman’s Association and Community Fire Company of Rising Sun’s banquet. It broke my heart to see that some people … Continue reading
Posted in Annapolis Fire Department, Community Fire Company of Rising Sun, Events in honor of John, Firefighting, Horses, Life after John's Death, Nathaniel
Tagged Colorado, Community Fire Company of Rising Sun, firefighters, flag, Harford Cecil Volunteer Fireman's Association, hating myself, IAFF, John, let John down, memorial service, Nathaniel, nobody care, nobody love, nternational Association of Fire Fighters, practical, program, sad, September 11th, stressed, those people, wall tracing, widow, widow experience, won't be holding my breath
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One year ago today…
One year ago today at this time, I was a wife. Before evening, I was a widow. A lot of reflecting, soul searching, memories, and tears have taken place over the last few weeks. Yesterday, thinking about the circle of … Continue reading
Posted in Life after John's Death, Nathaniel
Tagged circle of life, flowers, grave, John, memories, Nathaniel, peace, reflecting, soul searching, tears, widow, wife
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As it draws closer
With every passing day, it draws closer to a year without John. In jumbled order… somewhere around this time we were watching the Tour de France together. There was the terrible pop of bone… the awful MRI experience (for … Continue reading
Posted in Annapolis Fire Department, Life after John's Death, Nathaniel
Tagged AFD. Annapolis Fire Department, alone, ambulance, bachelors, beer, big picture, dating, Disney, divorcess, encouragement, future, happiness, issues, John, let go, lonely, lost, love, move on, Murphy's law, Nathaniel, overwhelming, sad, support, Team Smitty, Tour de France, vacations, widow
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“Your sad story.”
I guess that is what it has been reduced to. Somebody who I’d think would have perhaps used a little better judgment has now on multiple occasions referred the situations that occurred in my life as “your sad story.” As … Continue reading
Posted in Life after John's Death
Tagged bite my tongue, don't care, fishing widow, hunting widow, snow plow, why ask why, widow, your sad story
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I’ve decided that I’d rather be a toddler than a widow…
Watching Nathaniel has caused me to come to this decision. I’d rather be a toddler than a widow…. When you’re a toddler It’s perfectly acceptable to cry in public. People think you’re cute even when teary eyed. You can throw … Continue reading
Posted in Life after John's Death, Nathaniel
Tagged bad dream, belly, big delights, boo boo, carefree, cheerleader, comfort, cry, drive, emotions, guide, hugging, innocent, love, meals, Nathaniel, normal, pep talk, public, simple pleasures, smile, snuggling, temper tantrum, toddler, toys, uncomplicated, unconditional love, widow, worry
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Calling a fire station
A few nights ago, at work, I had an account that I needed to call. My account recognition skills told me that our customer was a paid firefighter. On a side note- paid firefighter or career firefighter is the correct … Continue reading
Happy Birthday, John
I put a great deal of thought in how I wanted to honor and remember John on his Birthday. I think it is doubly important because of Nathaniel. I always want Nathaniel to know that his father loved him and … Continue reading
Posted in Events in honor of John, Nathaniel
Tagged balloons, bulletin board, John, Nathaniel, suggestions, too young, widow
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One calendar month since I lost my husband…
and became that dreaded “W” word. WIDOW… Sigh. I never thought I’d be a widow at 33 years of age. From http://www.dictionary.com as it applies to me… wid⋅ow –noun 1. a woman who has lost her husband by death and … Continue reading
Posted in Cats, Horses, John, Leaky Creek, Nathaniel, Pre-stage IV, Stage IV
Tagged bird, cancer, death, dentist, doggie, dork, Dr. Stottlemeyer, eye doctor, fight, Horses, house, insurance, kitty, love, love of my life, melanoma, memory, money, mourning doves, Nathaniel, rainbows, Rascal, Ravens, relationship, responsible party, saddness, sense of humor, smart ass, widow, Willow, Wilson, Winnie, Winston
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Rainbows & Mourning Doves 